Did you know that Suicide claimed 41,149 lives in 2013 in the US alone, with someone dying by suicide every 12.8 minutes, a suicide attempt is made every minute of every day, resulting in a nearly one million attempts made annually. Suicide is a permanent fix for a temporary problem.
Some of the signs of suicide warning's are, if a person talks about suicide/killing themselves, havening no reason to live, being a burden to others, feeling trapped and unbearable pain.
A person's risk of suicide is greater if a behavior is new or has increased, especially if it's related to a painful event, loss, or change.
Increased use of alcohol or drugs, looking for a way to take their own life, acting recklessly, withdrawing from activities, isolating from family and friends, sleeping to much or too little, visiting or calling family and friends to say good-bye, giving away prized possessions and aggression.
A persons mood will change from depression, loss of interest, rage, irritability, humiliation and anxiety.
And there are the history facts. Family history of suicide, family history of mental health conditions, previous suicide attempt's and childhood abuse.
If I only knew all of this when my husband and brother took their lives, maybe I could have done something to help.
No matter what, I will for the rest of my life be riddled with guilt. I know it wasn't my fault, but some things just can't be understood by others until they've walked in my shoes.
For the first time in 4 years, 2 months and 22 days, I went 2 days without crying. Crying for that long really makes you age and takes a lot on your body and your soul.
The only thing that keeps me going, are my grandkids. When they're here, I'm happy and laughing, but when they leave, I'm so lonely and all alone.
I know some of you think I shouldn't be writing a blog at all, but I really don't care what anyone thinks anymore. You have a choice. You can except me for who I am, or not at all. And do not ever tell my that you understand, because you don't! Unless you've walked in my shoes.
