February is really not a good month for me. I met my husband in February and we got married in February. Not all in the same month though. :) 

I'm beginning to think that things aren't going to get better. I'm just so tired of asking for help and now when I ask, the answer is always no. There just isn't anything else that I know to do.

I'm so embarrassed and ashamed for what my husband did. I wish I could go back to that day and change it, but I can't.

Tears still pour from my eyes on a daily basis. I loved him so much! I miss him and I need him so much right now. I'm mad at him for leaving me in the situation I'm in and I don't know what to do anymore. So I just write my feelings out here for the world to see. But if it will stop one person from taking their life, it's all worth it. Maybe they will see just how much more pain the person left behind is in than the pain that they are in.

I'm fixing to run out of some of my meds. I'll just have to do with out. If I get sick, so be it.  Maybe that's what God's will is, I don't know. All I can do is give it to Him because I don't know how much longer I can keep going on like I am.

My husband used to call me a worry wart. He was right, I worry so much about so many things. I just wish I could get him back but I can't...