If you have ever had anyone threaten to kill themselves, regardless of how many times they make that threat, don't just not believe them, take them seriously! Try and get them help. I wish I knew then what I know now, but that wasn't the case.

I've heard people say it's the quite ones that kill themselves, but I personally do not believe that. My brother threatened 3 times. The 3rd time, he succeeded. When a person is suicidal, they are "thinking" of taking their own life and what they really want is help, but they don't know how to get it.  Sometimes they cannot see beyond what's right in front of their face. To them there is no tomorrow.  They are lost and confused. They don't think about the severe pain that the ones that love them, are going to be in more pain than they are. When they succeed, their pain is gone, but our pain is a life time.

Things do get better for the survivors, as time goes on.  It has for me. I finally can laugh again. When I would hear something funny, I'd catch myself laughing, then I'd suddenly stop. Why, you may ask. Because my loved one isn't here and cannot laugh with  me.  I've gotten over that now.

If anyone is reading this blog, and you are thinking about taking your own life, please don't.  You can leave me a message and I will help as much and as best as I can. And remember, "A stranger is a friend that I haven't met yet."

For some, they think that no one will understand what they are going through, but  there are people out there who do!

I'll be making more posts soon. They will be posts from when I started keeping a journal. That way you'll get to know my pain. If you've never experienced losing someone from suicide, you'll never understand that kind of pain. However, having said that, a death is  a terrible loss and that I do and you will understand that.

One other thing that is so very important to me, is that God carried me through this. I thank the Lord for what I do have, even after losing my house, my dogs and 90% of what we owned. And I still have to get rid of some things. God is always there, you just have to trust Him!

I have lots of work to do between now and Christmas.

Until next time..... if you need to talk, please leave me a message.